are you happy?

.... is such a difficult question. I always say yes, because I have friends, I laugh at jokes, I go out a lot and have fun. My life isn't as bad as it could be, and I don't have terrible problems. It could be worse.

But then, one night at 3 a.m.when I'm alone and still awake, lying in bed and thinking about life, I find myself crying my heart out. Suddenly I'm convinced that nobody likes me, or nobody will ever like me. I feel horrible and I question everything I had.

And I don't know if I was ever happy at all.

(sf.)